Ryan O'Neal Watches 'Farrah' with Farrah

61. GOD BLESS FARRAH - her documentary deserves and award and I hope she is here long enough to recieve it herself...

Posted at 2:45PM on May 16th 2009 by bstn02152

62. It's been a very rough night because of this documentary. I've been watching the articles that have been posted in regards to Farrah and Ryan. I chose not to read any of them because I felt it would be too upsetting after what I've live through. So many people with Cancer feel the same way, when your facing a terminal condition the best medicine is your positive attitude.
When I heard that they would be airing this documentary last night, I had a real struggle with myself if this would be good for me to see. I made a mistake and I'm doubting myself if I have made the right decision in keeping my illness so private. It probably would have been better in the long run if I hadn't have watch. It brought up so many memories and also made me face what I need to real focus on myself.
I lost my sister to Cancer in 1992 and it was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. She had three children and this was her biggest worry about who was going to be watching over them after she was gone. I promised her I would take care of them and it did relieve some of the stress at the end. I've tried my best to fulfill my promise to her but I'm now in the fight of my life.
My Father was my rock and he passed away in 1981. My Mother is 98 years old and she is finally in the time of her life she doesn't remember much and she's now enjoying life as it should be. My Mom is not aware of my condition and it's better for her to never know. She was never the same after the loss of Anne.
At the present time, my three children aren't full aware of my medical condition and it's probably for the best. I don't allow them to take me to Chemo treatments because I don't want them to have the memories of my treatment for the rest of their lives. I fight a silent battle and very few of my friends know my condition. I don't believe in pity parties and it's best they remember me for who I am and not for what I have. It works for now and I fell this is best for everyone. I'm just praying that none of my children saw this documentary.
My Cancer returned in October 2008 and this particular type is not curable only treatable. It's in the whole lymph system for now and they are trying to keep it from the other organs. Chemo is now every 6 months for the time I have left.
God has granted me "Miracles" in my life and only He knows what the out comes will for all of us. God gave me time, at least for awhile to get a few things in order.
When my first Cancer appeared in December 2004, they gave me 5 days to live but God wasn't ready for me yet. I asked God, " My Children need me now and my work hasn't been finished."
My daughter, Leslie, was alone and she needed someone in her life to love,care and support her after I'm gone. God did Bless Me! She will be getting married in September 2009 and I need to be there to see my baby happy and secure.
I know how this documentary affected me and I'm sure their are many others out there that probably struggling this morning. You try to protect your love one's but in the end, I sure hope I've done the right thing for all of them.
I live alone except for My Little Girls. They are my support system for now and they are the best therapy for me. Even my oncologist clarified them as therapy pets. Punkenpie ( 6 lbs. )and Breese (3.8 lbs.) they give me the motivation each day to go on. They are my Yorkies, more like people then pets. I sometimes refer to them as, " Little People With Hair."
I'm sorry for the long post but It's very hard when you really can't voice how you really feel.
I hope this information might help someone facing this horrible disease and help them to make decisions they feel is right for them. I feel I'm doing my best for now, in time maybe I'll handle this a little different.

My message for you: Get your regular check-ups even if you feel well. Enjoy what is really important in your life and do what makes you happy now.
I live my life one day at a time and try to enjoy the day that I have. It's the little things in life that mean so much. Have you ever just sat on your porch and watch the trees change, or watch a flower bud, watch the humming birds feed, or listen to birds singing. Take the time to listen, it just might be an, "Voice of an Angel".
By the way, Farrah, it does rain in Heaven.

God Bless Farrah and all of you.

Posted at 2:49PM on May 16th 2009 by my little girls

63. Such a sad story. I think that this cancer and many other little known about cancers certainly need research but also they need to be available to non-rich people as well. Farrah has lots of money to be able to go to Germany, get those treatments although all that money didn't stop the cancer. They need to fight just as much to have that health care available to all.
I also worry that Ryan could steal her morphine being he is a drug addict. I know that sounds horrible but drug addicts don't think of that. He would probably steal it after she dies too. I pray that Hospice is there because they keep a very close eye on that and would certainly know if it is gone or more is used then was documented.

Posted at 3:16PM on May 16th 2009 by imjustsayin

64. After watching Farrah's Story last night...I couldn't sleep. Was pondering it all, and restless all night long. Even today her beautiful face is like a shadowy wallpaper in the back of my mind. The torment and suffering endured in those failed treatments, hope rising, and then hope shattered. Perhaps a cruel game of wicked lessor gods.

Maybe Farrah has never asked, "Why me?" but I ask, "Why her?" Why Patrick Swayze? Why anyone?

Posted at 3:32PM on May 16th 2009 by Sleepless in Hawaii

65. I pray that she is taken soon so she can be out of pain. I also hope that more research is done on this unknown cancer and others like it. I do hope as well, that treatment is available for all incomes and not just the rich. She had money to fly back and forth to Germany and get those treatments, most people aren't that lucky.
I hope that Ryan does not steal her morphine. He is a drug addict after all.

My heart and prayers go to her for her courage and strength.

Posted at 3:37PM on May 16th 2009 by imjustsayin

66. I have to say that that was one of the most gut wrenching documentarys I have wittnesed. I know that if I should ever get this horrible illness I would not have the guts to go what she is going through unless I knew for sure it was going to save my life. I have had heart surgery and that was nothing compared to what a cancer patient goes through.
I love Farrah and always have. She is a fabulous actress

Posted at 3:42PM on May 16th 2009 by Ann

67. I have never cried as much watching a TV show as I cried last night. One of the reasons I wanted to see the show was that I helped a friend in her struggle with Stage 4 cancer when she went to Germany for treatment once the doctors in the US gave up on her. I know first hand what my friend went through in Germany. But I gotta tell you, I was SHOCKED when I saw Farrah drinking Coca-Cola and Starbucks coffees since the German alternative clinic my friend was in would NEVER let her drink that stuff. Her diet was organic and absent of sugar and processed foods. And when they told her NOT to fly back to the states, she took their advice. That was eight years ago and my friend is cancer-free today.

As I watched the show, I really cried for Farrah because, while she has a good support system in place, I think they were so driven by the typical AMA approach to healthcare that her body never got a chance to recuperate from the drastic and sometimes "experimental" treatment that failed miserably. The German approach to cancer is SOOO far beyond what we do here, that it makes the US cancer docs look criminal.

My friend was taught that cancer is an emotionally driven disease and part of her treatment was to get to the bottom of all the crap she buried emotionally through the years. I think Farrah has had a helluva burden of emotional crap dumped on her, from Ryan's drug use, violence against her and their son, Redmond, who looks like he's a complete loser. Farrah is a good soul and a kind, compassionate woman who deserved better in her life. But perhaps all that drama bore a hole into her body that left a place for the cancer to grow. Show me a cancer victim and I'll show you someone who has a lot of sadness, anger, regret and pain in their life BEFORE they even find out they have cancer.

God Bless Farrah and may she pass soon.

Posted at 3:57PM on May 16th 2009 by Been there

68. I don't know why they don't let her son spend her last days with him either. He's not a murderer or rapist. After watching the show, I wonder if there's a time to quit fighting & die in peace. My friends sister has pancreas cancer & she opted out from chemo. It's hell to go through & very little chance of making it anyway.

Posted at 4:41PM on May 16th 2009 by Reine

69. May the good lord be with you at this time. This is so heartbreaking for the public, so I can only imagine how hard it is for your family

Posted at 4:04PM on May 16th 2009 by HOLLY

70. Ryan has been by her side for months. He may have had problems in the past but he is there for her now. When I finally die, I don't want to have the world see it, but I respect her wishes to do it her way.

Posted at 4:04PM on May 16th 2009 by Linda Mott

71. How heartbreaking to watch. I cried more than once. She is truly one of the most dignified women I have ever seen. I only hope that her son Redmond can stay away from drugs and not use her illness to sink further into drugs. The scene with her and Redmond was more than heartbreaking. Im glad she has a support group. I thank her for showing the reality of cancer.

Posted at 4:07PM on May 16th 2009 by trytobe good

72. I watched the video last night and I was moved to tears...I lost a lot of families to cancer. I saw my grandmother and my brother-in-law suffer the way she is. Last night I went to bed and watched other shows but kept coming back to "Farrah's Story". In my dream I actually dreamt that she was suffering so much that her mind wanted to stay on the earth but her body just couldn't live anymore. I feel for you Ryan and Redmond. I know you won't read this but I pray that when God takes her, that it is peacefully, that in the end she just lets go. Ryan and Alana I want to thank you for bringing this great story to the public. You touched me.. and for the rest of my life I will remember Farrah.. not just as a sex symbol...but as a courageous woman who gave the public a view into her very private life that we would of never seen if she hadn't picked up that little video camera. God bless you all and may God bless Farrah as she lives the rest of her days in His hands....

Posted at 4:15PM on May 16th 2009 by Donna McGuinness

73. After watching "Farrah's Story" last night I have to say that I believe she has to be one of the bravest women I know. Just to let the camera's into her life at this time of her life is brave in itself. I too believe that they should let her Son Redmond be on house arrest or finish his sentence at a later date so he could be with his Mother at this time. I just pray for a miracle for her. Bless you sweet angel..

Posted at 7:02PM on May 16th 2009 by Debbie

74. I THOUGHT IT WAS SAD SHE WAS MY FIRST CRUSH BACK IN 6 MILLION DOLLAR MAN ERA IS WAS GOOD TO SEE KATE JACKSON AND JACKYLN SMITH BYE HER SIDE I WISH HER THE BEST

Posted at 4:32PM on May 16th 2009 by johnny

75. Oh my. What a will t live. Her courage is an insipiration. At a time like this, I am glad that Farrah was allowed one last visit with Redmond. The visit wasn't really for Redmond as many seem to think. I often wonder why people suffer so when they are fighting a terminal illness and I think it is about the deeper bond they experience with God before they transition. Farrah showed me what that bond is truly made of. Farrah you are the world'a angel.

Posted at 4:36PM on May 16th 2009 by connie