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DJ AM -- Crack Was 'My Drug of Choice'

8/30/2009 4:41 PM PDT BY TMZ STAFF

There are several chilling quotes and clips popping up about DJ AM since he died, but listening to him call crack his "drug of choice" might be the most telling of them all.

In a recent interview with MTV News to promote his upcoming reality show about drug abuse, DJ AM talked about how he bought a crack pipe to show how easy it is. He said, "I bought a crack pipe ... that was my drug of choice. And I walked out and I'm holding it ... and then I realized after I was holding it that my palms were sweaty and I was like, 'Wait a minute, this is not smart for me to be holding this.'"

AM was found dead in his apartment Friday night of an apparent drug overdose. A law enforcement source told us they found a bag of crack by his body.


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his # was up - simple as that!

1879 days ago

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1879 days ago


Oh, please! Another addict kills himself and its gotta be all over the news and TV and computers and everywhere till we are sick to death of hearing about it. This guy gets a second chance at life by walking away from a plane crash and he plays with crack? Go walk thru a cancer ward and ask how many of those people would like a second chance? I am so angry its hard to even comment here....don't know why I bother. There will always be people who idolize these druggies and whine that we should feel sorry for them because it is an addiction/illness. Yes, it is.....and Hollywood types have all the resources available to BEAT the addiction/illness, more so than the average guy more sympathy, no more TV shows dedicated to their addictions, no more glorifying their irresponsible lifestyle and behavior..... And no more taking my kids' hard earned money from part-time jobs to buy any stupid CDs or other merchandise or see your concerts or movies or anything else you're selling. We are done buying! Gee, maybe without the money they won't be able to support their habits and they will be 'out of here' that much sooner!.

1879 days ago


Anyone recommending the "shaming" of an addict is beyond stupid. We don't even have to talk about addiction with this subject, but about learning lessons. There are people in this world who will completely turn off (their ears and their brains) when they feel advice isn't coming from a compassionate, understanding place or that their personal character is being attacked by those trying (albeit in an extremely misguided way) to "help". There are bright children in schools who end up failing again and again due to obnoxious and uncaring teachers that don't understand their sensitivities and continue to reject and punish them based on their lack of understanding. You focus on the fact that he died of a drug overdose, but not that he was sober for an extended amount of time, dealing with what was likely PTSD and extreme guilt from surviving TWO plane crashes, and working on an addiction special in an attempt to help others that unfortunately threw him right back into the environment he had escaped for so long, and ALL AROUND THE SAME TIME. He was in therapy up until his death, which clearly was not nearly enough to deal with all of this plus his sudden breakup. These are not excuses, these are the way things were for him. People die of suicides everyday who aren't addicts - and again - people want to blame their selfishness as if they have an idea of what depression is and how difficult the pain is for some people to cope with. The talented, the sensitive, the nonconformist, the empaths, the individuals, and the creatives struggle more with everyday life than your average unremarkable individual, who settles into societal norms so as to be considered "normal" and therefore feels little internal stress or discomfort due to being satisfied with being like everyone else. It isn't taxing on them because it's a position of conformity and they don't stick out, they don't struggle with internal monologues and a sense of things not being as they ought to be. You will never, ever understand unless you are one of them. Try to learn something before you run off at the mouth recklessly.

1879 days ago


Oh and let us not forget the people that roam the earth with undiagnosed ADD that develops into other neuroses. I suppose that with THIS actual, legitimate "disease" typically caused by brain trauma, a chemical imbalance, and/or a host of other factors - which can lead to addiction due to the low impulse control and a typical desire for instant gratification that comes along with it - should then be blamed as well for their "choices" when really, they have less control than someone who functions without it? My last post here is really exemplified by the type of people posting sad, callous comments on here with a holier-than-thou attitude as if they've lived a perfect life without ever making a mistake or doing something WRONG (which, interestingly enough, is what they're doing here as we speak). You are no better because you were able to control your impulses and make better choices. We can all be sure you have made some that weren't great yourself, you just aren't in the spotlight to have your business and personal life put out there for comment, scrutiny, and derision which adds an extraordinarily different angle to things. We can expect you never will be, either.

1879 days ago


diamondg-That was beautifully said. Nobody will ever understand how truly difficult it is to recover. It's something you have to be concious of every day, sometimes every minute of every day because there is so much to lose if you forget for one minute that your an addict. Try living in a society where alcohol & drugs are so much a part of everyday life but you can't be a part of that because for you it can mean the loss of you job, losing everything you own, & alienating the people around you. Addicts already feel apart from society whether actively using or recovering. The cruel attitudes only further seperate them from "everybody else". Until this changes, until people are more accepting of the experience of the addict then people who need help will not seek it & addicts & alcoholics can't Get clean & sober by themselves. They need support. That includes the support of their community.

1879 days ago


What is drug addiction?

Addiction is a chronic, often relapsing brain disease that causes compulsive drug seeking and use despite harmful consequences to the individual who is addicted and to those around them. Drug addiction is a brain disease because the abuse of drugs leads to changes in the structure and function of the brain. Although it is true that for most people the initial decision to take drugs is voluntary, over time the changes in the brain caused by repeated drug abuse can affect a person’s self control and ability to make sound decisions, and at the same time send intense impulses to take drugs.

It is because of these changes in the brain that it is so challenging for a person who is addicted to stop abusing drugs. Fortunately, there are treatments that help people to counteract addiction’s powerful disruptive effects and regain control. Research shows that combining addiction treatment medications, if available, with behavioral therapy is the best way to ensure success for most patients. Treatment approaches that are tailored to each patient’s drug abuse patterns and any co-occurring medical, psychiatric, and social problems can lead to sustained recovery and a life without drug abuse.

Similar to other chronic, relapsing diseases, such as diabetes, asthma, or heart disease, drug addiction can be managed successfully. And, as with other chronic diseases, it is not uncommon for a person to relapse and begin abusing drugs again. Relapse, however, does not signal failure—rather, it indicates that treatment should be reinstated, adjusted, or that alternate treatment is needed to help the individual regain control and recover.

1879 days ago


I said something like this before on a similar post, but I'll say it again. Recovering from an addiction is an intense job. You can not take sick days, vacation days, mental health days, or even weekends off from the everyday struggle and work it takes to stay sober when you're an addict. I admire him for doing this for 11 years while still working in an industry full of the temptation to use. Yes, I am sure people will say that if he wanted to stay sober he should have moved to Wisconsin and worked in an environment where temptation wasn't so rampant, but I disagree. I give him props for staying true to what he loved and doing it (successfully) for so long. I am sorry this was the ending to his story, but I want him to rest in peace, and I hope he is DJing that big party in the sky.

1879 days ago


Cocaine is a powerfully addictive stimulant drug. The powdered hydrochloride salt form of cocaine can be snorted or dissolved in water and then injected. Crack is the street name given to the form of cocaine that has been processed to make a rock crystal, which, when heated, produces vapors that are smoked. The term “crack” refers to the crackling sound produced by the rock as it is heated.
How Is Cocaine Abused?

Three routes of administration are commonly used for cocaine: snorting, injecting, and smoking. Snorting is the process of inhaling cocaine powder through the nose, where it is absorbed into the bloodstream through the nasal tissues. Injecting is the use of a needle to insert the drug directly into the bloodstream. Smoking involves inhaling cocaine vapor or smoke into the lungs, where absorption into the bloodstream is as rapid as by injection. All three methods of cocaine abuse can lead to addiction and other severe health problems, including increasing the risk of contracting HIV and other infectious diseases.

The intensity and duration of cocaine’s effects—which include increased energy, reduced fatigue, and mental alertness—depend on the route of drug administration. The faster cocaine is absorbed into the bloodstream and delivered to the brain, the more intense the high. Injecting or smoking cocaine produces a quicker, stronger high than snorting. On the other hand, faster absorption usually means shorter duration of action: the high from snorting cocaine may last 15 to 30 minutes, but the high from smoking may last only 5 to 10 minutes. In order to sustain the high, a cocaine abuser has to administer the drug again. For this reason, cocaine is sometimes abused in binges—taken repeatedly within a relatively short period of time, at increasingly higher doses.

How Does Cocaine Affect the Brain?
Cocaine is a strong central nervous system stimulant that increases levels of dopamine, a brain chemical (or neurotransmitter) associated with pleasure and movement, in the brain’s reward circuit. Certain brain cells, or neurons, use dopamine to communicate. Normally, dopamine is released by a neuron in response to a pleasurable signal (e.g., the smell of good food), and then recycled back into the cell that released it, thus shutting off the signal between neurons. Cocaine acts by preventing the dopamine from being recycled, causing excessive amounts of the neurotransmitter to build up, amplifying the message to and response of the receiving neuron, and ultimately disrupting normal communication. It is this excess of dopamine that is responsible for cocaine’s euphoric effects. With repeated use, cocaine can cause long-term changes in the brain’s reward system and in other brain systems as well, which may eventually lead to addiction. With repeated use, tolerance to the cocaine high also often develops. Many cocaine abusers report that they seek but fail to achieve as much pleasure as they did from their first exposure. Some users will increase their dose in an attempt to intensify and prolong the euphoria, but this can also increase the risk of adverse psychological or physiological effects.

What Adverse Effects Does Cocaine Have on Health?
Abusing cocaine has a variety of adverse effects on the body. For example, cocaine constricts blood vessels, dilates pupils, and increases body temperature, heart rate, and blood pressure. It can also cause headaches and gastrointestinal complications such as abdominal pain and nausea. Because cocaine tends to decrease appetite, chronic users can become malnourished as well.

Different methods of taking cocaine can produce different adverse effects. Regular intranasal use (snorting) of cocaine, for example, can lead to loss of the sense of smell; nosebleeds; problems with swallowing; hoarseness; and a chronically runny nose. Ingesting cocaine can cause severe bowel gangrene as a result of reduced blood flow. Injecting cocaine can bring about severe allergic reactions and increased risk for contracting HIV and other blood-borne diseases. Binge-patterned cocaine use may lead to irritability, restlessness, and anxiety. Cocaine abusers can also experience severe paranoia—a temporary state of full-blown paranoid psychosis—in which they lose touch with reality and experience auditory hallucinations.

Regardless of the route or frequency of use, cocaine abusers can experience acute cardiovascular or cerebrovascular emergencies, such as a heart attack or stroke, which may cause sudden death. Cocaine-related deaths are often a result of cardiac arrest or seizure followed by respiratory arrest.

Added Danger: Cocaethylene

Polydrug use—use of more than one drug—is common among substance abusers. When people consume two or more psychoactive drugs together, such as cocaine and alcohol, they compound the danger each drug poses and unknowingly perform a

1879 days ago


Crack is whack!

Drug addictions are not a disease or an illness, rather a lapse in judgement and willpower.

1879 days ago


BULL !!!! If you never tried it you wouldn't be addicted to it.

1879 days ago


WOW some of these comments are disgusting.It takes a low person to make such nasty comments about someone who is dead someone who I am sure none of you ever met and someone who I am sure made more money than any of you

1879 days ago

dina osullivan    

Those who abuse drugs know they can die from the abuse and no matter how so called famous they are like Michael Jackson,Anna Nicole, DJ AM and the rest. They are not good role models for anyone, especially children. If a person uses drugs everyday and can't live a life without them, then why should we mourn their death. They brought it on themselves. I am glad there is less news about Jackson on television.He was just a drug addict like all the rest that kill themselves.Find someone who has done soething good for the world and respects them self enoughnot to use drugs.I have
no sympathy for these abusers no matter how famous they are..

1879 days ago


Yeah Steve, there's some serious jackasses here alright! Old Dale there has got all the answers though! A problem that affect 1 out of every 10 people on the planet is just a matter of "willpower & bad judgement"!!

1879 days ago


It's not a "disease" it's a *choice*. Some people make good choices, while others make bad choices. That's the bottom line. Learn how to make good choices and you won't end up like him.

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