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Michael Jackson

Drug-Induced Rambling:

"I Had No Childhood"

10/5/2011 11:35 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF

Michael Jackson I had no childhood
Michael Jackson
wanted to dedicate his "This Is It" concerts to his children -- and in a heartbreaking conversation Dr. Conrad Murray recorded weeks before the singer died, MJ claims, "I love them because I didn't have a childhood."

You can hear MJ's voice in the recording -- slurred, incoherent -- explaining how he wanted to outdo The Beatles and Elvis with his final concerts, and go down in history as the greatest entertainer who ever lived.

Michael becomes extremely emotional while speaking about his children -- claiming, "I had no childhood. I feel their pain. I feel their hurt."

Murray recorded the conversation on his iPhone on Sunday May 10th, 2009 at 9:05 AM. It's unclear why -- but according to prosecutors, it documents MJ under the influence of "unknown agents." It also shows Murray was familiar with Michael in altered states of mind.

At one point in the clip, Murray asks Michael if he's okay -- and Michael responds, "I am asleep."

The recording -- a clip of which Prosecutor David Walgren played during his opening statement -- was uncovered by investigators after they seized Murray's device.

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46.

cake    

Murray had been caring for Jackson on a nightly basis - not daily basis, and had been administering medications to help Jackson sleep - every night.

This seems similar to the night Michael died - it was early morning and may very well had been unable to sleep all night. Murray likely administered several medications through the night and Jackson finally fell asleep at 9:07am... heavily sedated (as indicated by his slurred speech).

So are we going to find out what MURRAY had administered to Jackson that caused the sedation?

1057 days ago
47.

check yourself    

FINALLY got to hear the audio in it's entirety finally ty.... live streamed this morning.... but, oh Jesus. I'm so sorry Michael. So so sorry.

I don't even want to get started on WHY Consh*t would even be taping something like this, k. It's all I can do to keep my puke bucket dumped, to fill for the next bit of FACT we find out about this heinous, dead beat, whore, cheater, LAZY AZZED, arrogant, f*cktarded LOSER POS BS DOC.


"Rambling"?? WTF?? Prob that fumbling rambling eyeball rolling snarky TMZ JarJar Binks f*cktard that wrote this article would describe this audio - figure everyone else 'speaking' sounds the same dumbazzed as he does so makes him feel better to call MJ "rambling".

This audio of MJ is not only COHERENT, but hella poignant. Goes to show you that even IF/WHEN totally sedated, or next too it: MJ'S GENUINE PURPOSE IN LIFE WAS THE SAFETY, HEALTH, AND WELL BEING OF ALL CHILDREN.

Furthermore: OKAY??.... now THIS... this "Michael Jackson Hospital" is what the "tribute" charity SHOULD be about!

Oh.. but, is it? Answer: Oh, HELL NO. J Clan isn't the first thing about ANY thing, or ONE, beyond themselves and personal bank accounts/profit. Ever.

We can hope that listening now to the ENTIRETY of this audio that they collective hang their heads in SHAME as anyone with the same blood running through their veins - exploiting him for profit - as MJ's WOULD/SHOULD feel.... but, uh... NOT GONNA HAPPEN.

The Michael Jackson Hospital "charity". Be VERY wary if we hear THAT charity all of a sudden spewing out of any member of the J Clan. Too late to claim THAT charity to scam "tribute" ticket buyers with (who knows... still a couple days for GLE/LaTrasha/J Clan, to create it/'go there') ... just... beware. How pathetic is THAT.. that we'd have to check out it's legitimacy nine ways to Sunday before being able to believe that we could help MJ make his literally dieing dream come true...

HURL. Ugh.

1057 days ago
48.

Siggisis    

Was Murray possibly recording this for AEG? To do***ent that he was worth his humongous pay, making their race horse (poor Michael - all that pressure) sleep.

1057 days ago
49.

iFart    

I sure hope the jury is smarter than the TMZ moron who wrote this piece. MJ was not talking about his own children. He was not rambling and incoherent. It's obvious that MJ had an amazingly kind heart. For once, why don't you just stop belittling the man. He's gone and he isn't coming back, all thanks to Conrad Murray.
Love and miss you forever MJ.

1057 days ago
50.

Moi    

MJ really sounds as if he was talking while sleeping.
And I think by children he meant not his own kids, but all children in general.

1057 days ago
51.

sscarzz    

What a sick Doctor to be recording a patient under medication, Who knoww what else he recorded. Isn't there Doctor patient privlidge? Seems like it dosn't count when you die.

1057 days ago
52.

Marie    

Warren: about an hour ago
I think the estate and MJ's mother and kids should start making plans to build that hospital MJ was dreaming about.
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EXCELLENT IDEA. LET'S BUILD THIS HOSPITAL FOR MJ SO HIS DEATH WON'T BE IN VAIN.

1057 days ago
53.

shadough    

Michael Jackson was a drug addict for decades before he even met Dr. Murray. Stop blaming him.

1057 days ago
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55.

ylg    

Lately it seems like TMZ comment section have been hijacked by a class of third graders. TMZ are you TRYING to lose all your intelligent readers?

1057 days ago
56.

jxtr    

This doctor is a sleaze, why would he record his conversations with Michael Jackson? He obviously had intentions to extort money from Michael Jackson, or he was going to sell the recordings to a tabloid.

1057 days ago
57.

the real diva    

MURRAY IS A TOTAL QUACK.. NO DOUBT ABOUT IT. AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS HE HAD A TAPE RECORDER TO RECORD MICHEAL THAT DAY? WHY? IS IT BECAUSE HE KNEW HE COULD SCREW UP ANYTIME ON GIVING MICHAEL DRUGS..SINCE HE WAS A QUACK WHO DID NOT KNOW WHAT HE WAS DOING. SO HE RECORDED THIS FOR MALPRACTICE CASES?IT IS TRAGIC WHAT HAPPEN TO MICHAEL BUT I WOULD NEVER WANT THAT QUACK MURRAY AROUND ME... TAKE AWAY HIS LICENSE FOR TO PRACTICE MEDICINE.. AND LET THIS CASE BE OVER WITH AND MJ REST IN PEACE.AND THEN WE ALL DON'T HAVE TO HEAR ABOUT IT AGAIN..

1057 days ago
58.

squeakermama    

It broke my heart to hear this. He held so much pain. It makes sense after hearing this why he was so childlike as an adult and loved children. He was robbed as a child and enjoyed playing and doing it with children.

1057 days ago
59.

There's a problem here    

With all due props for the incredible talent and genius that Michael Jackson possessed, I gotta say if his childhood was so bad you'd think he would have given a bit more of a **** about what he did to his own children. Living with daddy stoned out of his mind half the time, then waching him die of an overdose will definately fvk those kids up, no matter how grounded they appear to be.

1057 days ago
60.

LadyD    

Prayers for the Jackson family and Michael's children. May their bond of love keep them strong and united. Much love for the family.

1057 days ago
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