Chris Brown After Rihanna, I Considered Suicide I Felt Like a Monster

4/18/2016 6:14 AM PDT

Chris Brown's new documentary is revealing ... in the part that's been released, he never says he's sorry about beating Rihanna, but he sure feels very sorry ... for himself.

Chris' documentary, "Welcome to My Life," chronicles his rise to fame and the relationship with Rihanna that almost landed him in prison.

Brown says he felt like a monster after the beating as he watched the media go after him, and he even considered killing himself.

Watch the clip and listen closely ... it's more self-pity than remorse.