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Michael Jackson

Drug-Induced Rambling:

"I Had No Childhood"

10/5/2011 11:35 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF

Michael Jackson I had no childhood
Michael Jackson
wanted to dedicate his "This Is It" concerts to his children -- and in a heartbreaking conversation Dr. Conrad Murray recorded weeks before the singer died, MJ claims, "I love them because I didn't have a childhood."

You can hear MJ's voice in the recording -- slurred, incoherent -- explaining how he wanted to outdo The Beatles and Elvis with his final concerts, and go down in history as the greatest entertainer who ever lived.

Michael becomes extremely emotional while speaking about his children -- claiming, "I had no childhood. I feel their pain. I feel their hurt."

Murray recorded the conversation on his iPhone on Sunday May 10th, 2009 at 9:05 AM. It's unclear why -- but according to prosecutors, it documents MJ under the influence of "unknown agents." It also shows Murray was familiar with Michael in altered states of mind.

At one point in the clip, Murray asks Michael if he's okay -- and Michael responds, "I am asleep."

The recording -- a clip of which Prosecutor David Walgren played during his opening statement -- was uncovered by investigators after they seized Murray's device.

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91.

mymjj5.    

Good one Pegasus! Thanks!

1060 days ago
92.

Pegasus    

Hi mymjj5!

Which part is good? Just expressing my thoughts on things! By the way - Your doing a terrific job - Congrats! Keep up the great work!

1060 days ago
93.

Pegasus    

On a different note:

The Lanacane that was used. It numbs the area of injection so that you will not feel it. And that is the regular dosage of 0.2%. Given the strength of the cream that Murray had made up - he could have been applying it and injecting MJ with multiple drugs and much higher dosages than what he is claiming. An MJ would not have felt the pain of the injection site. Or he could have used it to directly inject it into the IV line.

1060 days ago
94.

get it right    

OMG. Heartbreaking.

Anybody else have it cross their mind THE IRONY that MJ was saying all of this to a POS that doesn't even value his OWN children let alone give the slightest damn about THEIR childhoods let alone give a chit about children globally??

Oh, sure... you see this POS "POSING" at Disney and whatnot with the innocent little baby boy that his HO had with him 2 yrs ago... don't suppose that could have anything to do with "defense team drummed up FAKE azz 'good guy' PR", right.

OMG, please. OF COURSE IT DOES!

Imagine his HO Nicole has got him by the nads in a big way, and he knows it, so he had BETTER "play" baby daddy reaaalllly well... OR ELSE.

So damn transparent it's BEYOND ridiculous. Just like baby mama ho Nicole was on the stand. Gee, embarrass herself and him ta boot, MUCH! LOL!


Oh and btw "Pegasus" it's Lidocaine, not Lanacane. HUGE difference. ;)

G'Nite.

1060 days ago
95.

Pegasus    

Is it just me or does ConRat seem way too relaxed and cool? I would think, that he would be nervous and sweating bullets or something - especially after the Prosecutor revealed all the drugs that ConRat tried to conceal. Also, I cannot wait to ConRat on the stand - the Prosecutor is going to have the Time of His or Her Life with HIM!!!

ConRat Murray is GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY AND IS GOING DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN!!!!!!

1060 days ago
96.

Pegasus    

Thanks for the correction of the cream!

1060 days ago
97.

anonymous    

Please! MJ was a long time junkie who doctor shopped to get anyone who would get him drugs. Murray was a doctor whose professional and personal life was in disarray, the perfect foil for MJ's drug "joneses". Both are complicit in his (MJ's) death. boo hoo.

1060 days ago
98.

Janar    

This is so hurtful.

1060 days ago
99.

Janar    

This shows that Dr. Conrad Murray was not treating Michael, but just exploiting him. Why did murray record Michael while he was under the influence of something? Was it for someone else to hear? And was Michael even asked if he could be recorded so that he could give his approval of the recording and told why? And why did murray even keep the recording for so long that it was able to be confiscated?

1060 days ago
100.

Janar    

jazz: 3 hours ago

it's heartbreaking actually. Hearing him so out of it. I agree with those questioning why it was recorded, maybe murray was getting a kick out of the power of having complete control of a superstar. The tape of Dileo is some of the most incriminating imo as at shows they were worried michael might be doing something and wanted murray to blood test him to see what it was....well it was murray supplying, administering and ultimately killing him. He was already covering his own ass up. Will be interesting to see how Murray got out of it, did he tell them he tested jackson and nothing showed up, did he tell them he was medicating and monitoring him to let dileo think he had it under control. What a mess, he would have been better to plead guilty and cop it on the chin. Whether the defense put doubt in the jury's mind as to who administered the fatal dose it doesn't matter, that fatal dose would not have been there had murray not been doing what he was doing.
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This whole thing the way Dr. Conrad Murray mis-treated Michael Jackson is like a slap in our faces.

1060 days ago
101.

lala    

Conrat said "I know you WOULD." This proves he KNEW he was going to kill him. He should be charged with murder in the 1st!!!!!! He recorded it because he wanted to prove what he did to whoever wanted him to do it.

1060 days ago
102.

Paul    

Michael Jackson was a gift from God. He lived for children.
Heal the world !.
MICHAEL WAS A GIFT FROM GOD !

1060 days ago
103.

TSIG    

What a sweet and loving man. Ever since he was a little boy, spending his money on candy to give to other children, this man has done nothing but give, give, give to others -- family, friends, and strangers -- all of his life. Always thinking about what he could do for others; how he can help others. Even under the influence, giving to others dominated his thoughts. What a man. What a man. What a mighty, mighty GOOD man.

1060 days ago
104.

TSIG    

With all of the wealth they will inherit, I hope that his children will eventually build the Michael Jackson's Children's Hospital when they are older.

1060 days ago
105.

YellowTulip    

Maybe Murray recorded it to show MJ his strange behavior while he was on drugs?

1060 days ago
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