Fantasia on Overdose -- I Wanted to Die

8/23/2010 5:45 AM PDT

Fantasia Barrino on Overdose -- I Wanted to Die

Fantasia Barrino claims she knew exactly what she was doing when she pounded a bottle of Aspirin and overdosed earlier this month -- she was trying to kill herself.

In an interview with VH1, 26-year-old Fantasia claims she was so depressed about all of the drama surrounding her relationship with a married man ... that, "I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out."

Fantasia added, "At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]."

She went on, "I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."

As we previously reported, a friend called 911 soon after the "American Idol" champ popped the pills -- and she was transported to a local hospital ... where she was treated and eventually released.