Drunk ‘Bachelorette’ Contestant My Rape Line Was Entertaining ... Refuses to Apologize

5/20/2015 4:09 PM PDT

Drunk ‘Bachelorette’ Contestant -- My Rape Line Was Entertaining ... Refuses to Apologize

EXCLUSIVE

The 'Bachelorette' contestant who's getting blasted for dropping a rape comment on a cast member isn't backing down -- and says his controversial line saved the whole show. 

If you missed it ... Ryan McDill -- a self-proclaimed amateur actor and comedian -- was booted during the first episode after ripping off his shirt and telling another guy on the show, "Why am I not raping you right now?" That line combined with McDill's apparent boozing got him 86'd.

McDill admits he was drinking a lot, but adds ... "I wasn’t blacked out and knew exactly what I was doing.” He also says the rape line wasn't a joke -- as critics have said -- and claims he was really trying to say, I'll destroy you.

He tells us, "People need to get off their high horse. It was awesome and entertaining.”

As for the heavy drinking and groping Kaitlyn's ass -- McDill claims he felt pressure to play it up for the cameras -- and claims all the guys on the show do it too. However, he does NOT say producers told him to act like a tool.

And McDill offered one last shot -- he actually thinks producers should thank him because he was “the only reason the first episode was the s**t.”