Lolo Jones says she felt broken, unlovable and embarrassed after she was eliminated from "Dancing with the Stars" Tuesday night ... and penned an emotional letter saying she's sick of being a loser.
The former Olympian unloaded on Facebook right after she got the boot from the ballroom ... saying, "When I was dancing last night and messed up I had flashbacks of the three Olympics and that people constantly tease me about. I thought oh no here it comes again. People are going to ridicule me. I'm so tired of feeling embarrassed."
"I joined the other competitors upstairs and I couldn't force a smile on my face. I felt like vomiting and in between the other dances I went in a back room and fought back tears. I felt so broken. So unlovable. Embarssed."
Jones -- who's been RIPPED in the public over her lackluster performances at the Olympics over the years -- added, "I really wanted to stay on the show and have the layers of hurt wash away by showing the public how hard I work. I wanted to come away a victor for once. I wanted to do so good performing in public that the haters would stop teasing me."
"But that is my way of thinking. Not Gods. Instead I need to trust God that he would heal my heart. That I would not work so hard for the world to validate and redeem me but know that God already conquered that for me on the cross."
She concluded ... "My time was brief but the lesson is lasting. Thank you everyone who wrote me kind messages. You were helping me not fall into darkness."
Yeah, she's taking this pretty hard.
Personal Doctor Took Selfie
While She Was Under
9/17/2014 6:22 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Joan Rivers' personal doctor took a selfie while the comedienne was unconscious during a biopsy ... shortly before her heart stopped beating ... this according to a new report.
The doctor performing the endoscopy had just finished when Joan's personal ear nose and throat doctor began performing a biopsy which was done without her consent -- this according to the CNN report.
A staffer at the Yorkville Endoscopy clinic reportedly told investigators Joan's doc stopped to take the selfie.
As we previously reported ... Joan went into respiratory and cardiac arrest and never regained consciousness.
The clinic has denied a biopsy was performed.
Judge Tells Former Stylist
Go Follicle Yourself!
9/17/2014 8:30 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Nicki Minaj just beat her hairstylist's ass in court after the judge wigged out.
Terrence Davidson had filed a $30 million lawsuit against Nicki ... claiming he helped design her multi-colored wigs and she in turn agreed to partner with him on a new line of the iconic hairpieces but then cut him out.
But the judge sided with Nicki ... dropping some serious wig knowledge in the process. Hizzoner explained there's nothing special about colored wigs ... anyone has a right to make them so Davidson's creative claim is bogus.
The judge called out 3 of Nicki's wigs to illustrate his point ... The Pink Upper Bun Wig, The Fox Fur Wig and the Pink High Top Wig.
The judge also said any so-called deal Davidson made with Nicki was vague -- nothing more than barber shop talk.
So case closed.
To Dodge Photogs
9/17/2014 7:20 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Iggy Azalea tried her best to hide from paparazzi -- and any talk about her sex tape scandal -- by going full ginger ... as in wearing a terrible red wig to walk through LAX Tuesday.
Iggy's lawyers will probably deny this is really her.
In other news...
Chris Brown was rocking the facial hair there for a while, but he finally got rid of it!
Check out that baby face!
Clooney's BFF Rande Gerber
Tequila for the Groom
I Got 50 Cases!
9/17/2014 1:00 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
George Clooney is getting a big discount on booze for his wedding, with the help of best friend Rande Gerber ... who's flying more than 50 cases of tequila to Italy for the big shindig a week from Saturday.
TMZ got video Monday of Randy leaving L.A. for Italy in a private jet ... loaded with at least 50 cases of Casamigos tequila ... the company owned by George and Rande.
The video is fantastic ... Rande drives up in a blacked-out black Mercedes right to his jet, where he inspects the precious cargo ... then has one of the guys cut open 2 boxes. Cindy Crawford's hubby then removes one bottle of Reposado and one bottle of Blanco ... then proudly fist pumps them as he boards the jet.
There are numerous reports in Italy ... the wedding is set for a week from Monday at Cipriani hotel in Venice.
Arrivederci ... and recuerdos a todos.
Beyonce & Jay Z
Eyeing Insane $85 Million Mansion
9/17/2014 12:40 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Beyonce and Jay Z could be close to setting up shop on the west coast ... after taking multiple visits to a ridiculous $85 million Beverly Hills estate.
Our real estate sources tell us ... while they were living in L.A. over the summer they checked out a brand new 23,000 square foot cliffside palace twice.
In addition to panoramic views of Malibu and downtown L.A., the 8-bedroom, 15-bathroom house features an attached 16-car garage, infinity pool, wine cellar, and a 24-seat movie theater.
Jay and Bey got a taste of L.A. life this summer while leasing a mansion in exclusive Holmby Hills for a whopping $200,000/month! The mortgage on the Bev Hills crib would likely cost 'em way more than that.
Still, chump change for them.
In other news...
Celebrity sightings are undeniably awesome ... which can lead to some pretty awkward moments!
'Glee Project' Contestant
Yells at Cops ...
I'm Black, You Want To Shoot Me?!
9/17/2014 12:30 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
An ex-contestant on "The Glee Project" tried to taunt Pittsburgh cops into shooting him -- and sparking a race riot -- during an arrest he claims ONLY went down because he's Black.
Bryce Ross-Johnson was thrown out of a bar Saturday night after scuffling with a bouncer for wearing a hat -- a violation of the dress code -- according to the criminal complaint, obtained by TMZ.
Police say when they arrived ... Bryce was antagonistic and taunted, "Hey, I'm African-American, you want to shoot me?" -- and, "Why don't you shoot me, that's what you do to black guys, right?"
Cops kept cool, and no shots were fired ... but the 25-year-old former "Glee" wannabe got arrested for public drunkenness, assault, disorderly conduct, resisting arrest and defiant trespass.
Ross-Johnson thinks the white officers and white bouncer targeted him because of race. He admits blurting the racial taunts -- but only because cops were asking him "stupid stuff" like what drugs he was on, and when was he last in prison.
I'm No Einstein
So Stay Away from Me!
9/16/2014 4:50 PM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Shia LaBeouf lives in fear of a woman who is convinced he discovered the theory of relativity ... a woman so deranged she threatened to blow up his house.
Shia just got a restraining order against Graciela Nahle ... who apparently showed up at his house eating watermelon on the driveway and when the actor asked her to leave she screamed, "I am going to blow up your house! I am going to blow up the world! You are Albert Einstein and we belong together."
According to the docs -- obtained by TMZ -- Nahle showed up at Shia's house 3 times and he fears for his safety.
She's been a thorn in Shia's side for months, once showing up with an infant in her arms ... claiming to have been best buds in a previous incarnation.
She's been previously arrested for making criminal threats against the actor.
Nahle has been ordered to stay 100 yards clear of Shia.
In other news...
Kim Kardashian has withered away to basically nothing in this red dress if you believe your eyes in this Instagram photo she took!SEE MORE »
Guess Who This
9/17/2014 12:20 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Before this grinning little guy was making the whole world laugh he was just another cute kid sportin' some awesome overalls in Columbia, South Carolina. Can you guess who he is?
Bobby Womack's Family
If You Think We're Broke Now ...
9/17/2014 12:10 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Singer Bobby Womack left behind a massive debt when he died in June -- including a huge child support judgment -- and now his family is trying to figure out how to pay it.
Bobby's widow, Regina, filed court docs in L.A. showing he owed $250K in back child support for two sons living in Ft. Wayne, IN -- one is 14 and the other an adult. He also had an unpaid loan for $400K when he died.
But Womack didn't leave much in the way of assets -- according to the docs he had $52K in cash and $7,250 in personal belongings, which included some jewelry and a 1974 Buick.
Regina says Womack also had music rights and royalties valued around $350K -- which will help pay down the debt -- if she can capitalize on renewed interest in his music since his death.
But Regina's a realist ... admitting the value of Bobby's music could fade quickly. In other words, help a sister out ... buy some Bobby tunes now!
Hey, Football ...
Don't Kick Me Around!
9/17/2014 12:02 AM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Still Hospitalized for Seizures
9/16/2014 7:34 PM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
August Alsina experienced multiple seizures after collapsing during a concert 24 hours ago ... and remains hospitalized Tuesday night.
A rep for the singer tells TMZ ... August is in the ICU of a New York City hospital and receiving treatment for the seizures. We broke the story when he fainted and fell off a stage Monday night.
The rep says doctors did not find any drugs -- other than marijuana -- in Alsina's system ... and at this point they believe the fainting was brought on by exhaustion and dehydration.
Boy Meets World Memoir ...
Not Everyone 'Membas
9/16/2014 6:00 PM PDT BY TMZ STAFF
Daniel Fishel's old “Boy Meets World” co-stars came out to show her some love at her book signing ... which is awesome. Now, whether the book is an awesome just depends on who you ask -- as the guys found out.
Little old ladies and 90s TV shows not called "Golden Girls" ... not a great mix. Who knew?