Cheslie Kryst 'I Cringe' About Turning 30 ... Shared Concerns Year Before Suicide
Cheslie Kryst's openly worried about aging, and society's treatment of older women -- an essay the late Miss USA winner wrote last year has some loved ones wondering if those feelings contributed to her suicide.
In the March 2021 issue of Allure, Cheslie wrote ... "Each time I say 'I’m turning 30,' I cringe a little. Sometimes I can successfully mask this uncomfortable response with excitement; other times, my enthusiasm feels hollow, like bad acting."
Cheslie, who turned 30 in April 2021, was already concerned about what came along with aging process. She added, "Society has never been kind to those growing old, especially women."
As we reported, Cheslie -- who was Miss USA 2019 -- fell to her death Sunday morning, from her midtown NYC apartment building. She reportedly left a note saying she was leaving everything to her mother ... but the note had no explanation for the suicide.
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Her final Instagram post, which she made within hours of her death, included the caption ... "May this day bring you rest and peace.”
In the essay, the accomplished attorney also shared some angst over chasing accomplishments. She wrote, "Why earn more achievements just to collect another win? Why pursue another plaque or medal or line item on my resume if it’s for vanity’s sake, rather than out of passion? Why work so hard to capture the dreams I’ve been taught by society to want when I continue to only find emptiness?"
Of course, hindsight is 20/20 and reading her words in the Allure essay could seem like a cry for help.
At just 30 years old, Cheslie was a practicing attorney, had won the Miss USA title and was an Emmy-nominated correspondent for Extra. She also poured a lot of time and effort into supporting social justice reforms -- but in Allure, it's clear she still wrestled with a feeling of emptiness ... despite her achievements.
As she wrote ... "Too often, I noticed that the only people impressed by an accomplishment were those who wanted it for themselves. Meanwhile, I was rewarded with a lonely craving for the next award. Some would see this hunger and label it “competitiveness”; others might call it the unquenchable thirst of insecurity."
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Jenna Sommers on 'Vampire Diaries' 'Memba Her?!
Canadian-born actor Sara Canning was in her early 20s when she shot to stardom after being cast as the fun-loving aunt Jenna Sommers -- who becomes the parental figure for her niece and nephew Elena and Jeremy Gilbert -- on The CW's drama "Vampire Diaries."
Canning shared screen time with some big stars including Ian Somerhalder as the bloodthirsty, Damon Salvatore ... and of course Nina Dobrev and Steven R. McQueen as the older sister Elena Gilbert and kid brother Jeremy Gilbert.
Sara can be spotted most recently on "A Series Of Unfortunate Events" and "Nancy Drew."
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Cheslie Kryst Ex-Miss USA Dead at 30 from Suicide ... Jumped from NYC Apt.
Cheslie Kryst, who won the Miss USA crown in 2019, is dead after a Sunday morning fall from her high-rise home in New York City ... TMZ has confirmed.
NYPD responded to a 911 call at 7:13 AM to Cheslie's midtown apartment building on 42nd Street. Officers and paramedics responded, but she was pronounced dead on the scene. Police are investigating, but they believe Cheslie -- who lived on the 9th floor -- jumped from high up in the building.
She was last seen on a 29th-floor terrace of the building ... according to the NY Post, which was first to report Cheslie's death.
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Just a few hours before she died, Cheslie posted a photo of herself on Instagram with the caption, “May this day bring you rest and peace.”
Kryst took home the top honors at the Miss USA pageant back in 2019 as Miss North Carolina. She was an attorney, and after winning the title, she also worked as a correspondent for Extra.
She used her Miss USA platform to speak out about social and criminal justice reform. She once joined us on "TMZ Live" to discuss that very topic.
She reportedly left a note Sunday morning, stating she was leaving all her belongings to her mother. Her family released a statement saying, "Her great light was one that inspired others around the world with her beauty and strength. She cared, she loved, she laughed and she shined."
The family added, "Most importantly, as a daughter, sister, friend, mentor and colleague -- we know her impact will live on."
Cheslie was just 30 years old.
RIP
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Kat Von D 'Cheaper By Dozen' Home for Sale ... $15 Mil Cheap Enough???
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Kat Von D is saying goodbye to all things California -- she just listed her L.A. mansion, which also happens to be a famous movie location ... TMZ has learned.
Long before Kat moved in, the huge home was featured in the 2003 movie "Cheaper By the Dozen" -- but take a look around this pad ... ain't a damn thing cheap about it!!!
The 3-story, gorgeous crib is 12,565 sq feet with 13 bedrooms and 10 bathrooms.
Kat paid $6.5 million for it back in 2016 ... and she's put some work and money into the place since then.
We're told she completely restored the Victorian home which some unique features, like a library, hidden bar with hand-carved walls and 7 fireplaces!!!
You know you're living right when your living room has a title -- Kat's is called the 'French Ballroom' -- and one more bonus is the 2-bed, 1-bath carriage house over the garage.
It also has some more commonly seen luxuries ... like a pool and spa.
Jamie Sher of The Sher Group holds the listing.
Kat selling shouldn't come as a surprise -- back in October, she announced she was leaving Cali for good and putting down roots in Indiana.
As you can see, she's leaving behind a huge home in SoCal, but we're betting she'll have a pretty sweet pad in Indiana too, where she'll get way more bang for her buck.
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Kelly Cutrone on 'The Hills' 'Memba Her?!
New York native Kelly Cutrone had made a name for herself as a PR guru and style savant but she made the switch into work in front of the lens when she was cast as the no-nonsense boss in the MTV reality television shows "The Hills" in 2008 and the east coast spinoff "The City" in 2009.
"The Hills" was packed with notable characters including Whitney Port and Lauren Conrad as the fresh-faced Teen Vogue employees turn People's Revolution rebels.
Kelly Cutrone made the switch to a judge for a few seasons of "America's Next Top Model" in 2012.
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Kim Kardashian Coffee Shop Stop With Hillary and Chelsea Clinton
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Kim Kardashian is back in the political sphere, this time hooking up with Hillary and Chelsea Clinton at a local black-owned coffee shop in L.A. ... with an important mission.
The trio was spotted Monday at Hot & Cool Cafe in Canoga Park. They were also joined by a camera crew, though our sources say it wasn't for the upcoming Kardashian project on Hulu. It's for "Gutsy Women" ... a Clinton-led show for Apple TV+.
Hot & Cool was founded in 2018, and features a vegan menu. According to the cafe's website, the owners chose the area because residents had historically faced challenges in trying to find healthy and convenient food options.
Not only that, the cafe is known for hiring formerly incarcerated people and underserved youth, something Kim has really been an advocate of recently.
"Gutsy Women" is a show featuring a cast of diverse and trailblazing women -- hence the stop in L.A. to highlight H&C's owners Tina Amin and Tony Jolly.
This is a new wrinkle, publicly at least, in Kim's profile as an advocate for the less fortunate.
As you know, she's been pushing prison reform ... visiting and speaking at The White House while Trump was in office, and she's inching closer to becoming an attorney to continue her work.
It's possible learning about and working on community reform -- which she's talked about in the past -- could be next on Kim's agenda.
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Singer Ava Max My Hair Fell Out 'Cause of COVID!!!
So, you don't want to get the COVID vaccine because you don't trust the science ... well, here's an incentive -- you get the shot, you get to keep your hair.
Singer Ava Max says she's suffered hair loss after contracting COVID. She posted a vid Wednesday night, saying, "Baby hairs Comin THRU. "Also so so happy my hair is growing back. I lost a lot of hair when I had COVID last year!! :( "
Turns out ... the "My Head & My Heart" singer isn't making this up. According to the American Academy of Dermatology, hair loss is a consequence of the virus.
To be specific, the Academy says high fever from various illnesses, including COVID, can result in "noticeable hair loss."
It's actually not technically hair loss -- it's hair shedding. It typically begins 2 to 3 months after the fever subsides. Clumps of hair can come out after showering or brushing, and it can last for as long as 9 months before it stops.
Well, if science doesn't inspire you to get jabbed, maybe vanity will.
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Bebe Rexha Struggling Over Weight Gain
Bebe Rexha opened up about her struggle with weight over the holidays, and she's clearly having a hard time, but at the same time offering encouragement to others.
The singer said, “So, it is the holidays and I know we’re all supposed to be, like, merry and like, ‘Yay, it’s the holidays. I think I am the heaviest I have ever been. I weighed myself just now and I don’t feel comfortable sharing the weight ’cause I feel embarrassed.'”
Rexha then went on to say ... “I just feel disgusting, you know, like in my own body.”
She went on to say ... “I don’t feel good in my skin, and when I don’t feel good, I don’t want to post, and that’s really honestly the reason I haven’t been posting in the last year or so as much as I used to.”
Bebe acknowledged her struggle with body image is from “a place of hurt and confusion.”
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In the past she's celebrated her body image, saying she wanted to normalize women who are not wafer-thin. She's blasted body shamers in the past and proudly posted bikini pics, but she's clearly going through it now.
Bebe offered words of encouragement to others who are struggling, sayinig, "To the person who is feeling down this holiday season, you got this and you will get through. Sending you love."
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Wedding Fiascos Bridesmaid Disinvited to Wedding ... True, I Looked Better than the Bride, But ...
A woman committed the cardinal sin in the wedding world -- she apparently looked better than the bride, and says that's why she became persona non grata at the ceremony.
Alena Yildiz from Germany shared her story ... "My close friend uninvited me to her wedding because she thought I looked too good in the dress she chose for me," immodestly adding, "Still took some fire pics in it though."
Now here's the thing ... it ain't the usual ugly bridesmaid's dress, so what gives? Yildiz opened up to Insider, saying she's being treated differently from the other bridesmaids ... "all of our other friends wore extravagant dresses as well, but she only had a problem with me."
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We'd call it a humble brag, but the fact is ... she pulls off the look in spectacular fashion!
Yildiz claims the bride was honest and insecure, saying the dress was "too attention-grabbing." She thinks it's all the bride's screw-up ... if she thought the dress would be too sexy on any of the 6 bridesmaids, she should have chosen an uglier garment ... certainly not one with a thigh-high slit.
BTW ... the friendship between Lildiz and the bride is kaput ... "It made me feel like I had no value to her as a friend."
Our opinion ... the bride should clearly have seen this coming.
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Saweetie How To Get A Head ... Rocks Blonde Buzzcut!!!
Saweetie is another living example ... certain people look awesome bald ... especially when it's bald by choice!!!
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It's pretty stunning ... she shaved off all her hair, and all that's left is a blonde buzzcut. She snapped the pics poolside, first posing in a pink bikini and then trading it out for a white one, before taking a dip.
No word on what inspired her to change her noggin, but for whatever it works the consensus here is thumbs up.
Truth be told ... this isn't an out-of-the-blue thing for Saweetie ... she likes to change it up. A few days back she posted pics of her with fiery red locks. And there are plenty of other examples ... girl doesn't want to bore herself with the same look for very long.
Now ... only takes minutes to get ready in the morning. Good job!!!
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Vanessa & Natalia Bryant Share Mommy-Daughter Love In New Lancome Commercial
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Vanessa and Natalia Bryant have ventured into the world of advertising, and gotta say -- they are one effective duo.
Vanessa and her 18-year-old daughter fronted a new Lancome commercial, and for a bunch of reasons, it's super effective. First of all, they look great -- a prerequisite for hawking makeup.
Second, the way it's shot it fees really authentic ... a mother talking to her daughter about makeup and reminiscing about her oldest daughter growing up. At one point, Vanessa confesses she was in tears when she watched Natalia come down the stairs, all dressed up for homecoming.
And finally, they vibe really well on cam -- especially because of the way it's shot. It feels like a real conversation ... like viewers are just flies on a wall, and that's the mark of a successful ad.
Well done, ladies!!!
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Salma Hayek Hotter Than Jennifer Lopez??? Twitter Says ... Absolutely
Jennifer Lopez might be hot stuff -- but she ain't finer than the great Salma Hayek ... at least that's what Twitter seems to have decided.
Another poll on the bird app has gone viral ... this time with the question being -- who's the baddest out of these 2 ladies??? Those gals being ... J Lo and SH, of course. In fairness, they didn't choose the most flattering shot of Jen here, but still ... the people have spoken.
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It appears Salma is the clear victor in the looks department -- with one user responding, "Salma past, present, in her prime, now & twice on Sundays." Another wrote, "Don't ever disrespect Salma and her elite horchata buckets again." Uhhh ... okay.
No doubt, both women are beautiful -- but based on how people are responding to the very unofficial poll ... the feeling is -- Salma may, perhaps, be underrated. Crazy, we know, but if you consider the fanfare and hype one gets over the other ... that sorta makes sense.
Frankly, J Lo is talked about and idolized waaaaay more than Salma is -- but it could be because she's a lot more public with her life ... which obviously includes her SOs, who are a thousand times more famous than Salma's husband, Francois-Henri Pinault.
He's a billionaire and all, but nobody really knows who the guy is. Point being, Salma is very low-key and private compared to J Lo -- which possibly plays into how folks perceive them.
But, on a basic hotness level, it would seem people hold Salma in higher regard ... and there's even visual proof some are offering up to make their point. Salma has shown a lot of skin on camera, and that well of content is helping fans firm up their argument.
Jen, on the other hand, doesn't necessarily flaunt her stuff on the big screen all that much -- but she isn't shy about showing off her body either.
With all that said ... we gotta ask ourselves, is Twitter actually right here??? Not to make this a contest or anything, but in the spirit of competition ... who would you rather???
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Saudi Arabia Camel Pageant Crackdown ... 40 Busted for Botox, Plastic Surgery!!!
Talk about busting humps ... 40 camels -- that apparently think they're straight outta Bev Hills -- are now booted from a Saudi Arabian beauty pageant for getting Botox, facelifts and more!!!
Yep, Saudi authorities are cracking down on dozens of camels they've deemed too cute to be real for an annual competition over there. The judges are now using "specialized and advanced" technology to see which contestants went under the knife to gain an edge over the others.
Far as we've heard, none of the humped hopefuls are guilty of getting BBLs, but some are guilty of just about everything else -- getting all sorts of fillers, nips and tucks to facial features and ears ... and even hormone treatments.
The monthlong festival kicked off earlier this month with breeders parading their most beautiful camels. So, why would they cheat? Well, the winner gets $66 mil in cash!!!
Camels are judged by their head shape, dress, posture and size of their lips, cheeks, knees -- and yes, their lovely lady humps. And, cosmetic altercations are strictly prohibited.
As you know ... camels are a staple in Saudi Arabia, and breeding them is a multibillion-dollar industry.
Good luck to all (clean) camels left in the competition!!!
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Ex-UCLA Star Cade McNown Wife Arrested for Grand Theft ... Allegedly Lifted Handbags & Jewelry from Boss
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Former UCLA and NFL QB Cade McNown's wife is in hot water after cops say she hatched and carried out a plan to steal hundreds of thousands of dollars in designer goods from philanthropist Sydney Holland.
Law enforcement sources tell TMZ, Christina McNown was arrested after a lengthy investigation revealed back in October she allegedly lifted Holland's purses, clothing and jewelry.
Sources connected to the investigation tell us McNown had been a trusted assistant and stylist for Holland for 12 years and had easy access to her personal belongings.
We're told Holland -- who famously dated Sumner Redstone for years -- started to notice items missing here and there over the span of several months before connecting the dots to McNown.
What's more, our sources say Holland noticed some of the stolen items pop up for sale online. McNown's been arrested and charged with 4 counts of felony grand theft and is set to be arraigned in February.
Christina's husband was a major BMOC when he played at UCLA, earning All-American honors in 1998, and went on to play 4 seasons in the NFL.
Despite the ongoing legal issues, Christina continues to promote herself on social media, and through her website, for work as a stylist.
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Gorilla Glue Girl No More Chemicals in My Hair!!! Dye Disaster the Last Straw
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‘Gorilla Glue girl’ is back at it again … this time she's swearing off all chemicals -- non-adhesive ones too -- for use in her hair, after a failed attempt at dying her 'do.
TMZ caught up with Tessica Brown Monday at LAX as she explained that she's flown to L.A. to get another hair treatment, this time at LA FUE Hair Clinic. She explained that her hair now frizzes up and falls out “whenever you touch it”, after using chemicals to change the color.
Tessica says she thought it would be safe because her hair had grown “so pretty”... and it had been a year since her tragic incident where she accidentally used Gorilla Glue instead of hairspray and ended up needing surgical repairs on her scalp.
She's back in L.A., desperate to stop her hair from falling out, but we gotta say ... her makeshift home repair looks pretty good.
From now on, she says she will be on a “natural [hair] diet.” When asked if she has a message to girls out there, Tessica simply says ... “it’s not worth it.”
Best of luck on your natural journey!!!
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Gorilla Glue Girl My Hair is Falling Out In Clumps ... Not Strong Enough For Dye
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'Gorilla Glue Girl' is having more issues with her hair ... she's losing locks in clumps after using a bunch of chemicals to change her hair color.
Tessica Brown says the problems reared their ugly head after she tried dying her hair brown ... and now she's seeing her hair fall out, and documenting her saga once again for social media.
Tessica's manager, Gina Rodriguez, tells TMZ ... Tessica dyed her hair brown two days ago, and now she might have to shave her head because her hair is like elastic and it comes right out when she uses a comb.
We're told Tessica usually uses wigs for different looks, but this time she wanted to try hair dye because she noticed some gray hairs coming in.
The hair dye was not professionally done ... we're told Tessica used box dye from a local store and she knew something was wrong when she felt a burning sensation, and parts of her scalp are exposed. She is planning on flying to LA to get a stem cell and PRP treatment on her scalp by Jacques Abrahamian at LA FUE Hair Clinic.
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Remember ... Tessica went viral earlier this year after mistakenly substituting Gorilla Glue Spray Adhesive for her normal hair spray ... resulting in weeks of rock hard hair, a trip to the ER, surgical repairs, and even released a song about her experience.
Seems Tessica's hair just isn't strong enough yet for dye after the Gorilla Glue debacle.